((((Hunny))))

Thank you my friend for your words. They really touched me and tears are in my eyes once again. Finding that part of myself has been an awareness I was not quite ready for in a way yet in another way knowing that in order for me to move forward she had to be found. The silent walls had to be brought down in order for anyone to move forward and the light to feelings could be released.

It hurts and is something I am really afraid of but yet I move forward slowly taking one step at a time. Trying to reach out to her with fear that I may hurt her yet knowing that she somehow needs my understanding and my love. Hoping somehow I can find that love within myself that layed dormant for so many long years and never really developed for it knew not how to.

Over the last three years I have seen love work and I have tried to feel it and know it but for the first time I am understanding it or at least trying to. It is something that at the same time is wanted and needed but also scary. Somehow it is like someone put glasses on me for the first time and I can see clearly for once. And I reach forward and the same time withdrawing for fear of the unknown.

She is right here with me and she is trying to reach for me and I for her. I fear hurting her fragileness yet I somehow know her very well. I know I sound confusing for I come and go almost as quickly in and out of feelings. But thank you for your support and for the love you are sharing. I appreciate you so much and thank you for caring. It means so much to me (and all within) (and her).

dps