Thanks all. I bought myself some pretty shirts today and now I feel a lot better! I also just bought the book "The Sexual Healing Journey" by Wendy Maltz on Amazon. Has anyone read this? It looks like it might be a good companion to the work T and I will be embarking on. Even though it sounds like it will be ICK and triggery for me! Well I will just have to take it slow.

I sent T an email letting her know I was okay and she responded that she was just about to check in on me, and that she knew this hasn't been easy for me in the least. I feel so cared about.. On Friday she felt like a stranger but now I am remembering how much connection we have. Any disconnection at the end of session was probably because I was mixing up words since I was totally disoriented. Like you said, griffin, it was like putting my hand on a hot stove! It still hurts a lot when I think about it, but I am not thinking about it all the time. It's going back on the shelf until Friday. I am recovering from this disclosure more quickly than I expected!