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Jewels · Apr 18, 2010, 02:26 PM

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how much i understand the inability to know how to parent those within who need that gentle touch, that mothering that needs to be. i struggle greatly in how to parent my child, and she is 14. I do not know how to parent because when I was her age I was uncared for, thrown to the side as if I were too damaged to do or be any good for anyone. I find it hard to put into words because I don't see myself as good at all. I reluctantly parent my child, but hope that I am there for her when she needs me, even though I am sure that I could do better, much better. I would like to say that I am able to parent myself as well, but I really do not know how.

I see strength in you, resolve to see this through to the end and that encourages me to keep on fighting for my own recovery. I see that even though fear assails you, you continue to move on, almost afraid to, but still you press on. I am encouraged to see you take small steps and make them huge.

I know it seems that this is going to undo you. I really get that. But know that you will not be undone. Rather, it will unravel so that you can see the thread clearly and be able to roll it back up so that it is not knotted or messy.

Thank you for sharing yourself with us. You give great hope for those of us who share your steps, who walk similar ways. Thank you for allowing us to step into your life, and walk a ways with you. Thank you for your valor and your grasp on life. Thank you for showing the way, while not sure of the way yourself.

I am sitting quietly with you, caring about you and giving you the gentle support you need. You have all I can give right now. Offering strength and hope. Be well, my friend.

Yahna