I have fought this for years. If I am better, than I must forgive. But I don't want to forgive. I am very angry. I keep all of this inside - I am an emotionless rock. My son said, "Mom, you're going to have a heart attack." Maybe this summer I will be heard. It is something that I have thought about for a long time. I don't need revenge, I need the ability to say, "You really hurt me. You destroyed me." But, most the time, I think that those who are capable of such acts are not capable of empathy, so it is probably just a waste of time. I wish I had an answer, because this is what has kept me stuck for 5 years. I know I would be able to recover if I had resolution.