Thanx for the advice. Honestly i dont even feel close to my own family. I dont feel close at all. I dont trust my family with any of my deep personal feelings. I never had them to rely on....emotionally. So im accustomed to not being emotionally attached. I never completely trust people with my feelings and my thoughts. I want to have at least one person i can trust but i dont have any. I always have to hold something back and not say something about myself because i feel certain people just wont understand.