I had no idea I had alters until after a therapist recognized my symptoms and I was tested and diagnosed with DID. then the doctor sat down with me and explained when I was losing time and not remembering what was going on from day to day , hour to hour, week to week, year to year, alternate personalities we carrying on so that others in my life would not know what had happened to me.

It took years and years of therapy to become co conscious (aware of ) those alters and then it took years and years in therapy to uncover each separate ones memories and then took even more time for me to adjust and accept those memories and emotions were mine , and then my alters became one with me.

Becoming co conscious of the alters and discovering the buried memories/emotions is going to take time and will only happen when you and that alter with the memories you are looking for are completely ready to handle the feelings/emotions and reality of what happened to you. Alters are created to take care of what you could not handle as a child so its understandable that they would continue their jobs of shielding you from those memories that you cant not yet fully handle on your own.

give it time, give yourself time to understand and be comfortable with what you already know and when the time is right those buried memories will become accessible to you.