I love you all

i am meeting him Wednesday in person to see what he has to say about everything.. but I will not be meeting him if he is still engaged to Lisa - I have my 'spies' in his office.. my old boss etc that will tell me what happens between now and then and if he hasn't done the honorable thing then I will not met him. I will not be the other woman in any relationship.. even if I was the original woman haha...
I am actually hoping that I see him in person and the feeling just aren't there anymore. It's easy to love someone still from afar.. up close it can be different. I have't seen him in over 4 months. My love could just eb a fantasy now and in real life it could be very different.