Ive had better days, but just having all this time to myself makes me think wayyy too much and thats when the wave strikes and everthing goes to ****.... Music is truly the only thing that makes me strive for more

Music brings the best out of me, its like my anti depressant and I dont want to do anything but listen to music while I lay in bed.

I dont know what to do anymore, I just want to lay on my bed and listen to Nat King Cole for the rest of my life.....

I dont know how to get over this depression, Im irritable, and no one wants me around because I can blow up in an instant. My behaviour is causing behaviour vchanges in my friends and its happening right in front of me......If i could take a good couple weeks off just for myself and have no worries and no troubles going through my mind would make my life. I need it so bad I feel Im losing my mind and falling out of my own skin....

My big question is, when does it get better and how long will it last???