...when you just feel utterly alone.

I rarely ever feel worthwhile....I rarely ever feel like someone cares...I rarely feel like I'm a part of this world....

I feel absolutely alone. I don't want to feel this way...but I do.

Is there no one who wants to be my friend? Am I that bad of a person? Why do my friends just ignore me? Or why do I push them away?! Just to feel lonely....it makes NO SENSE!

I'm feeling hopeless...although I know hope is somewhere inside of me...just hiding atm. Why can't I be the person I want to be?! I hate myself...