I spoke to an old T about some of my symptoms that resembled autism and OCD. He said they were all most likely from abuse. He didn't think that it was autism, because I recognized my second cousin was autistic when he was only 12-13 months old, he was only diagnosed at 18 months. My uncle was also autistic, so that gene (if there is such a thing) is in our family. Also, my grandfather has OCD, but we believe he developed it after he stopped drinking. I was abused since I was a baby, this I know. And I have all kinds of problems because of it. And since I do dissociate daily and have had dissociative amnesia, I would not be completely suprised, if this truly is an alter. Even now, I feel much better and myself, than from when I was writing before. I don't really care if someone else responds. I mean I would like someone too, but before I had this feeling of someone respond right now!!!, I'm going crazy!! If someone doesn't respond, I don't know what I'll do!! This is when I believe the alter came out. After that I read about how to communicate with one and I wrote to him and he yelled and cursed me out for trying to remember this trauma. I'm only trying to remember this one incident and hope that it could answer some questions. But this part inside me, won't let me. He almost forbids me to. It's okay. I know I'm not ready and I need to speak to a T about it.