((((AShadow721))))

Thank you for posting. Sorry I am just now answering. Yes, I have had others within that did not come out until I was ready for them. It seems that those within know when I can handle things. Some have come out and I did not know it and have talked but I was not aware of what happened or what they said. I had some new ones just step forth not to long ago.

One, Silence, did not step forward until it was time for the silence to be broken. She held that silence back so that we could survive and until I had gotten to the place that it was okay and time for her to step forward she did not. But it was a good thing and I am glad that she took care of herself and all of us and she knew when it was time to step forth.

There are many things that I only remember pieces of for I blocked it out and the others came forth. For so long, they did what I could not do--live. I cannot remember big parts of my life and yet I know that they hold it for me. I sometimes know it is night and then it is night again. Or maybe it has never left. I am unsure. I lose time that way and I know how it is unnerving and hard.

AShadow, you will get better in time. It took time for us to get this way and it will take time to get well. Be kind to yourself. I do hear you about wanting to get better for your son and husband. And you will. Please take care of you and remember to breathe. Know that we care and are here for you. Sending gentle hugs and loving thoughts. Always.

dps