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Originally Posted by darkpurplesecrets
There are many things that I only remember pieces of for I blocked it out and the others came forth. For so long, they did what I could not do--live. I cannot remember big parts of my life and yet I know that they hold it for me. I sometimes know it is night and then it is night again. Or maybe it has never left. I am unsure. I lose time that way and I know how it is unnerving and hard.
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I relate to this 100%. That is my day-to-day or night-to-night life. I wish I was here grounded with my son all the time, but I usually drift off, although I see him in front of me, I don't feel like I'm really here. I've also lost years of my life. And there is a more recent trauma I'm HOPING to block out as well. And I ask myself, why? I'll have to go through all this uncovering the memories over again? But I can't handle it and I wish I could erase it from my life. But I told it all to my husband and he'll still always remember it. So would that be fair to him, for me to forget it all and let him remember? Now I can imagine the physical picture of what it is like to let the alter carry the memories. Thank you so much for responding to me dps. If only you all responded when my alter was out, since he was getting so upset and impatient waiting for a reply.
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