I'm taking a major chance by telling him. All I can picture, is telling him, and seeing the hatred in his eyes, the screaming that would happen, the crying I would be doing.

I really want to tell him, you have no idea!!!

But if I do, I will lose my best friend forever, and it will kill me

I don't know what to do. I have a really long letter that I wrote, and I was thinking of just leaving it for him, and walking out of his life for good.

That way he wouldn't have to look at me anymore, knowing how I feel about him. It would be way too awkward for him.