I'm depressed I was told by my therapist and we are working on it. This was only about two weeks ago and I knew I was but only got help now. I have a lot of behaviors that are self-destructive that I can't stop. I binge eat until I'm so sick that I can't get out of bed, but I've never purged. I just exercise compulsively but I am overweight anyway. When I binge I can't stop eating even though the food doesn't taste good anymore. I just keep eating and I don't even pay attention to what I'm doing and I can't stop until it's gone. If I don't do that I do something else unstead until I can't do it anymore and I won't say what that is not even to my therapist because it's too humiliating and deviant in my mind because I don't know anyone else who does it. I feel like I have no control over what I do and the shame it is causing me makes it impossible to look other people in the eye and I feel like they can see into me and know what I do so I am uncomfortable going out anywhere except in the woods or where I know I won't run into anyone. I desperately want to change. Does anyone know how I can stop hurting myself like this? I live just to go through this over and over again and I don't know why. Thanks Attekus