I saw the psy again, and we started to explore and seemingly confront the roots of my thinking, using imagery to put me back into certain situations.

Some of the emotions found made me want to run from the room, to flee, to scream...
But I stayed, figuring that No harm will come while sitting in a safe room and they are just feelings, feelings cant harm you...

At conclusion of the session I was asked to try and not imagine the feelings, rather just the events this week and to continue mindfulness meditation practice

Still suspicious, and increasingly so of the psy, but the self harm thoughts which had taunted me of late are less frequent and life seems easier, more straightforward, less complicated and calmer since starting to practice meditation last week...

So far I am HAPPY AND RELIEVED to have gone and sought assistance,

Thumbs up to seeing psychologists!