you should journal sugahorse... I know it seems hard to find the motivation to journal when you're not feeling well, but it's a way you can preserve your feeling for pdoc to see if you are feeling more stable when you see her. If you don't feel like writing, what I have done in the past is get one of those little hand-held recorders and speak what I would write. Then I can go back later and type or write it out or just play the tape. Just a suggestion. Take care!