This is going to be long. We dated as kids (14 and 16). We were going to get married. My father kept it from happening when we were (18 and 20). He went his way and joined the Marines. I went mine and married my 2nd choice. 20 years pass by and we have our chance to be together.

I love and adore this man. The only thing Ive ever wanted was to be his wife and to have him by my side till the day God called me home. I knew when we had our chance to be a couple that he was coming to me with TBI/PTSD, that there were physical limitations and Im still ok with those things. I love him. He couldve been full on paralyzed and I would still be by his side. Unconditional love would accept nothing less than totally devotion and commitment.

My struggle is that after waiting 20 years to be his wife.... I often go to bed alone because he cant sleep. He often chooses to stay home instead of going out with me as a couple even to dinner. He wakes up and plays online video games. Sits there all day long. Stays there till he is ready to go to bed at night. He says it busys his mind and distracts him from the physical pain. I help him with his meds, pay all the bills so he doesnt have to worry, take him to all of his doctors appts, and do everything possible to be loving and make sure he is comfortable.

Ive waited my whole life to be with him.......he is here with me..... and Im so alone. Im scared to death that he is just alive and not living. Im scared that im not doing the right thing to make him happy. I want him to WANT to spend time with me but he seems more content to be alone. His PTSD is treated through medication. He is never mean or violent..... He just wants to be in his own little bubble it seems...... and I miss him.

All I want is a few answers..... What do I need to do to keep him from feeling stressed? Is there a certain amount of distance I should expect? Does this behavior mean he doesnt love me? How can I even tell if he is really happy? How do i get to a point where his distance doesnt hurt and leave me feeling alone? I adore him. I'd rather die than give up on him and i refuse to lose him. I just need a little help.......