my fine person---you don't give your heart away, never refuse a good offer, and avoid the pit of self-remorse. punp yourself up with ego-mania if need be. be narcissistic, most of us are, and Love youself. it is rather a sad fate, as you can't 'be in love' with anyone but you. and it has problems---you may certainly love others---always risk in that---but usually worth it. seems to me, the impact is hitting you very hard. that's a problem. i can only guess its basis, but i think you can whup this. like tuning new gutar strings....

pirate