Thank you. thats what ive thought about saying. hes been acting really caring here lately so im going to tell him when we go in. i go in first so she can make sure im ready and come with a strategy of how im going to tell him. and they may put me in the hospital because i will be going through withdrawls of not being able to cut im probably gonna be watched non stop cause im afraid that i cant quit. its the only thing keeping me from doing the other.