Well, tomorrow I see my pdoc and I will be telling him I want to switch to Dr. L. My peer support specialist, Pam, from the CCS program will be going in with me (she is also a mental health consumer advocate) so that helps, but I'm still afraid he is going to yell at me like he did last year in the hospital or give me a hard time about wanting to switch. I am thankful that I don't need my meds adjusted and that I have enough refills to last until the middle of June (until August for a couple of them), otherwise I'm sure it would be even harder to switch because the other doc might not want to take my case if I'm in the middle of changing meds. This appointment was originally set up because I had to get in with another pdoc a few weeks ago when mine wasn't available because I needed my meds tweaked just a little bit (the dosage on two meds was just upped a bit) and she wanted me to follow up with my regular pdoc to make sure the changes helped. The thing is, I don't know what exactly to say. I mean, I have a "speech" planned but when I go over it in my head it sounds stupid. Can anyone give me some opinions on how this sounds?

Here is what I have kind of planned to say: "This is Pam from the CCS program that I have been accepted into and I asked her to come with me today. The changes that Dr. W. made a few weeks ago have worked out well and I am feeling much better now. I also want to tell you that I want to switch to Dr. L. I've seen him a few times when I was in the hospital and I feel much more comfortable with him. Dr. W. gave me 5 refills on the lamotrigine and clonazepam, and I have enough refills on the others to last me until the middle of June."

I don't know; what do you all think? And what if he wants me to give him more reasons that I want to switch? Or what if he says something like "I don't think you need to switch to someone else. He won't do anything differently anyhow". I'm even more nervous because my social worker told me that a LOT of people are trying to switch from Dr. P. to someone new right now, so he might already be p'd off. He really scares me...help? Oh, and I've tried to calm down and take some deep breaths and it is NOT helping! I haven't been able to distract myself either. My normal coping methods aren't working at all. Why can little kids scream at the top of their lungs for any reason but if I did that right now I'd be hauled of to the hospital? NOT FAIR!