And to add a new reason to switch to a new pdoc:

My social worker just stopped by with some papers I had to sign for that new program I'm starting, and I was looking through it and saw that my current pdoc has also diagnosed me as narcissistic. First, he never told me he had that as a diagnosis, and second, I just looked up narcissistic personality disorder and the symptoms and I honestly don't see how they fit me. That's like the borderline personality disorder he has me diagnosed with; I only fit a couple of the criteria and according to what I've read, a person has to fit at least 5 of the 8 criteria in order to be diagnosed with it.

I originally started seeing him because at the time I was seeing a psychiatric nurse for my meds after the pdoc I'd had before left his job, so when I was hospitalized at one point because I was in crisis, I saw a pdoc I'd never met and she is the one who diagnosed me with the borderline - after talking to me for about 10 minutes. No testing or anything. So she wanted me to see him because that is his specialty, and actually was going to hold me until I had an appointment set up with him. Then, when I did start seeing him, he never did any testing or anything to confirm the diagnosis; all he ever did was prescribe meds and insist I start DBT. When I tried to bring up the subject of the borderline diagnosis, he dismissed the conversation entirely.

So the entire time I've been seeing him (I guess it's been about 5 or 6 years now) I've never seen him for more than 10 minutes, and that was only to give me refills for meds or to adjust them. I'm not sure how he is diagnosing these things without any real conversations with me and without having me take any of those tests that they give. The last time I took one of them was over 10 years ago, and I know that when I did take them, I was not diagnosed as borderline or narcissistic. I was diagnosed with bipolar II, anxiety, and PTSD. And the doctor I was seeing back then saw me several times for 1/2 hour appointments to confirm what the testing said before adding them to my chart.

I really hope that I will be able to switch to Dr. L. - I'm going to ask him to start fresh as far as what I've been diagnosed with, except for the insomnia, PTSD, bipolar II and anxiety, because I have no doubt at all about those. I'm not saying there is anything wrong with having those other diagnosis, I'm just saying I don't think they fit me, and if the diagnosis is incorrect it is hard to find the correct treatment, you know? Right now I'm diagnosing myself as "terminally confused" LOL...