((((AShadow))))

I am sorry that I did not respond sooner. Things have been hard and I at the time really could not find any words to say. I want you to know that if the altar comes out and wants to please let them pm me and I will respond when I come back. I really do care and I know how it sometimes can be frustrating.

I am unsure of what the recent trauma was but know that when and if you want to talk we are here. And I am so sorry that this happened. I do know of how recent trauma affects us and I really am sorry you have experienced that. You didn't deserve that.

When my children were small, I do not remember so much as I floated through each day, not really knowing whether it was day, night, the next day, or anything. I tried to be sure that they were where they needed to be and on time but I really do not remember. Those within myself did take over so many times.

I remember when I would go to see t sometimes I did not know that I had been there before and would apologize to her for not being there yet she said I never missed an appointment. Yet I remember nothing. I know it is hard, I really do.

Right now I feel like I am here yet afraid to be. What is that about? All I know is you do make sense and I understand what you are saying. Know that you are not alone and that we do care. Please try to take care of yourself and do something kind for you. We are listening and hear you. Please keep posting and letting us know how you are doing. Sending gentle hugs and loving thoughts. Always.

dps