I'm just so angry with myself. I've got a headache from the spinning in my head. I just can't stop thinking I'm going to mess up my entire life...can't stop thinking I'm going to mess up getting a job, can't stop thinking I'm going to mess up every friendship I've ever had...and worst of all mess up my relationship with my family. Oh not to mention never have a life of my own...

Just makes me want to SI more...but I'm too angry about last night to do it again. (atleast for now)