ugh. It went pretty badly.
T talked about how trauma work is a short process, usually 12 weeks. I told her I cannot imagine processing a life time of trauma in 12 weeks.
She said I could do 90 min sessions w/her and maybe also meet weekly with my case manager. Trigger rejection issues...

Also she told me today that we have 4 more weeks of doing this skills training instead of therapy. Last week she said 3 more weeks, so it should be 2 more, not FOUR more. I am not getting what I need out of doing therapy this way. Period.

tayquincy, to answer your post above about DBT, I have been through the skills training twice as per the usual. During that year, I was seeing my T weekly for 1:1 and also having group skills training weekly. Now that she is teaching me the new "updated" emotion regulation stuff, it is taking the place of my normal 1:1 sessions.

I did call my T this afternoon and left her a message saying that I need time to talk about what is going on in my life, and we need to look at a different way of doing this. I gave her 3 ideas I have: alternating weeks, so one week I could talk about whatever it is, and the next we could do the emotion regulation stuff. Or splitting the session into half and half. Or maybe she has a group going on that is doing emotion regulation right now and I could sit in on that.

I am just not sure I can do this for another 4 weeks, bottom line.

And of course now it has been 6+ hrs since I called her so I am stuck in the waiting-for-T-to-call place and not enjoying it.

Really starting to wonder if I can get what I need from this T or if I'm just holding on to her because I don't like to lose people in my life, especially people who have been important to me, and she has been that. Trigger abandonment...