I can't cope now though

I have this week to get through first
How can I get it together enough to teach tomorrow
Actually the teaching I can do it's the little things like talking to other staff and finding all the worksheets and resources I keep losing. COping when someone throws up a problem I am expecting to solve. All that stuff.

I wish I had your confidence but I don't. I tried to find it but I was wrong to believe in it. Wrong to believe I deserved help. Wrong to believe peope would want to help me.