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Originally Posted by REEG
Um, it feels like I was just a mess- that I totally made a spectacle of myself. But when I think about it, I really didn't just felt that way. But it FEELS so overwhelming, so out of control, you know?
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I know what you mean about feeling like you are making a spectacle of yourself...I had to get out of a crowded movie once (I was late so I didn't get my usual seat in the back on an aisle so I was in the middle of a row) and I got to my car as fast as I could so I could be upset in private...and it felt like everyone knew why I left, even though I knew *logically* that they didn't know and probably didn't care. Sometimes it's hard to believe that logical side!!
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