Oh (((DR)))) I can SO relate to this. My weight was low the last couple of weeks and I was thinking this just isnt the way I want to be. So thin and focused on how it feels to be so incontrol of all of that. I eased up on weighing myself and I feel a whole lot more present and even able to accomplish more but it is SCARY. I am afraid of where it could lead me etc. It IS like losing a freind. Its like losing the comfort that I am in control, but actually the ED is in control of me. When I ease up, I feel more involved in my life.

How was Ts message stern? Was it okay with you? Did you feel comforted or no? I think it IS about reminding our brains where we want to go and what we want from this life. Did she sound like she was with you? I mean, was the stern-ness okay?