Zoo, I'm sorry that you aren't getting what you are needing right now. But you are doing an awesome job of verbalizing what you need and you are sticking with it until you get it. Very good work! You might not get it from this T (or you might?) but you will get it somehow and from someone if you don't give up. I'm sure that you are hearing old messages right now about your self worth as you are experiencing what is going on right now with this T. And abandonment messages. They are only old messages. I know they are powerful, but the people who put those messages there were messed up people. There is a better way and a better life out there Zoo and you are going to find it. It takes time and sorting through the crap to get there. Hold on Zoo and keep kicking and accept our hugs along the way ..............