Rainbow, I seem to have missed a lot of your earlier postings about Bt; I'm sorry.

I'm just now getting an idea of what Bt would've been like to work with. It sounds as if at least part of her approach to therapy was to dominate you into seeing things her way and (maybe) changing your behavior to match. I've never had a therapist like that (though parents, teachers, bosses and friends are another story). I've found that for me, there always have to be two stages to the process:

1. Submit to the domineering or "blunt" person for a while until it becomes clear to me that I've learned all I'm going to be willing to learn from them.

2. Get away from them and start finding out what's really so for me (thus, why whatever they were trying to tell me wasn't working for me).

Sounds like you're in Stage 2. yourself.