Zelev. Is it appreciation for task you're really seeking? What about appreciation for YOU? I believe we all have self esteem but react differently according to background/teachings. We all have it in us to be dominate or submissive; however, it seems some of us have not experienced maintaining a middle ground. The approval is a method of saying "no" to an opinion where the "no" has to be accepted. So not sure what it brings you. I appreciate that you've reached out and only hope that this response will help in someway.