Ugh so I am still going in and out of the gross feelings. I sent T an email that said this:

Please tell me you don't think I'm completely disgusting...

And she said:

Jessica, there is not an ounce in my being that thinks you are even a tiny bit disgusting.

Whyyy does this make me feel WORSE? I feel SO GROSS and nothing makes me feel clean!!!!!!!!!!! OCD is acting up too.