thanks for all this!

haha
well.... i think im going to write a note [i am usually a major chatterbox, but this seems too hard to do in person >.< ] that basically says i dont like him anymore, but i'll still be friends... and, hopefully, everything will be fine again?
i wish i could tell him yes that i like him& wanna date him, but i wouldnt just be lying to him, but myself too... and if i cant even be honest with myself, who can i be honest with? [ehh, too serious of questions! >.< ]