((((1girl))))

Aww thank you oxbowgirl for those loving words and envouraging words. They really touched my heart and once again brought tears to my eyes. I am so sorry that you can understand so well what I say. I know that many here walk similar paths and with all of us walking the same direction we can help one another along the way.

I think you are right that there will always be that fear of then, now, others, and what next. For those that grew up in that fear it is hard to imagine a time it will not be present. Seems we always live in a state of watching and waiting. I wish it were not that way, but for us it is a constant.

You wonder who may be around this next turn, or what will this person expect, or where will they come from next time. Yet, here at pc we all can gain strength and knowledge from what someone shares or maybe we can finally find the very words we were looking for all along that we could not seem to find on our own. The very words that may tell what it is we have been trying to say for so long.

And we can be there for each other to encourage and cheer them when they take that next step however small or giant it may be for all steps count when you have never taken any before. And the fear somehow does not seem so big when I am here amongst those that can understand and relate in some way.

I think finding the puzzle pieces takes time as for so many of us the pieces were shattered and splintered and there is more than one piece to each piece and there are no directions or even a picture to follow as to what it is suppose to look like. We take risks and chances with each piece we look at and attempt to put where it belongs.

With each risk and each attempt, we learn a little more and if we keep trying someday it will come together and we will begin to see the one who first stood before it fell all to pieces. And then we can see the totality of ourselves with all connected and together.

So the risks are worth it in the end however scary or how many times we have to take another risk another chance, and we are not alone for here are many that walk this road and together we can encourage and support one another.

Thank you hon for your loving words they mean so much more than I can tell you. Sometimes we feel as a ghost and so afraid that maybe we do not make sense or that we push others away because maybe we do not say it right. My heart is full of words that find their way out one at a time. If anything we say can help someone else then it has been worth it.

I thank you and if you ever need anything please feel free to pm me. I really care and I understand so many things others say. I am glad you are here at pc. Sending gentle hugs and loving thoughts. Always.

dps