Finally stopped crying.
I don't think it was related the the ex thing, perhaps that just triggered me to feel really depressed .... Reliving something from the past perhaps.

I don't know, I felt like there was something in my stomache, and I wanted to cry but couldn't, or didn't allow myself to.

What broke that was my bf telling me we were not getting a dog, maybe if I had money and worked etc then maybe, but I gave up on looking for a job right now... I have no education, so I think if anything i'm going to look into that again.

I had a huge crying fit a bit ago, so drained now.
Still feeling really ****** though.