((((Jexa)))) I love the responses you got. It is all so true- you got it OUT and you dont have to be alone with it. And what a wonderful suggestion to look at yourself the way T would see you or any compassionate person you told this to. But, still, I understand that icky ewww gross feeling regarless of who heard it and how they reacted. The whole sex abuse thing left me with an icky ewww feeling that comes back when I talk about it as if I was right there.
What can you do to get it out? Can you journal about the gross feelings?

About T telling you she has never worked with anyone with the sex problem you are having...Can you ask her what she would do in that case?Would she ask someone who knows more?

I have also felt I wanted to f*** it all and therapy is just too painful and it isnt helping anyway. But it DID seem to pass. I know you wont feel this way forever.