You are going to do what you are going to do, Belle. Please promise yourself one thing. If you end up disappointed that you do not beat on yourself. It just could be that for some being lovable, loving, trustworthy, vulnerable, soft, generous and noble is only a matter of convenience.

In my view, you have not accepted that you do not need another to have meaningful life. Which is not to say you will not meet the person who is worthy of being the father of the children you want.

As I have said before, I wish you only the best.