I write, sew, draw, paint and make jewelry I get the artist thing. I work thirty hours a week and still feel like I have enough time for the artsy stuff. If I can get my ducks in a row and pursue the jewelry thing I would still probably transition by working a few days a week.

I guess what I'm saying is that unless I'm depressed I seldom want to do just one thing. But when I'm depressed and I want to do nothing I blame going to work for my art not happening (and vice versa) when the truth is I need an explanation for the normal people around me because I actually don't want to do anything.

You need to take care of yourself. I had a boyfriend who always said "I will be happier when I'm doing ____ " over and over until I realized he was just depressed. You can accept him the way he is and possibly still be happy as long as you are taking care of yourself. If you make sacrifices for him you might come to resent him and yourself.