sometimes we need to SI, and i think it's ok. what you did just is what it is... doesn't change because it's "self harm" or because it's "getting clean" or whatever. it made you feel better and i'm glad you feel a bit better, jex .

im sorry i havent been following this thread sweetie, i'm doing similar stuff right now and it's too triggering for me to offer useful support by reading your posts and other people's responses. i am still sending love, though!!! maybe i can pop in every now and again and send some hugs.