Thanks everyone.

I have eaten today and eaten properly Marjan so don't stress please xx

Byz - I have actually accepted that I don't need anyone to make me feel whole... it was a revalation! If by chance I do find the right person to share my life with so be it... but honestly I am happy with my life as a mature, single, financially stable woman... and I don't need anyone in my life to make it complete..
It's a the silly want for love that holds me back some.

I haven't heard from him yet... it's 3pm Wednesday... He has to come to me as Marjan says...

I am staying STRONG on this xxx