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Apr 21, 2010, 03:15 AM
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Member Since: Jan 2009
Posts: 3,982
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Anderson,
I just know this scenario so well. How did you know this is my life? It is uncanny all the stages.
mustering courage
keeping certain people away
enjoying time with people you feel safe with
Letting go of that bad guy and woman
Warning a trusted friend
don’t be worried, you are not scared of them
not all alters are noticeable to outsiders
you are after all integrating.
You are your own person
your family has a better situation now
you are going to be okay to work
but you suffer ptsd from your last work experience
re-experiencing those feelings of being in the same room
as those that had hurt you in the past
Staying away from certain places is definitely a consequence of early abuse
Trouble is they still kinda win
you stay away because you don’t want to be a puppet or a pawn
Protecting someone else is a way of coping
It hurts to think of those that we trusted
stood around and did nothing
You no longer care about financial security
You say, if you don’t want me let me go stop telling me you are here for me
but still believe in those that hurt me
then tell a different story
Judge a person by the color of their soul
Son is safe now and I can move on
Trust is okay to learn
strength may or may not return
the chains could be gone or not
the little ones still hurt but want to love again which may or may not happen
enduring only to the end is what is required, I expect
Hunny
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