((((((((((((((Jexa)))))))))))))
Ouch.
That sounds like it would hurt. I'm sorry you felt like you had to do that.

But I think to truly be SI, it seems to me there has to be the intent.
Maybe it was close, because it was harmful and it sounds like it did provide the feelings of relief. IDK.

Either way, you don't deserve scrubbing.
You deserve gentleness and care,
You're feelings are not who you are.
And you are a caring, intelligent, sweet and lovely person.

[quote=jexa;1351843I feel a little better. I scrubbed myself down with a Scotch Brite pad in the bath.[/quote]