* I dont know if this is the place to put this*

Today i had a mandatory meet i had to go to or else i could not register for spring classes. The topic was on sexual harrassment and phsyical abuse. Ok i do not want to go cause i was physically abused and i have a memory that im unsure of about sexually molested by a older kid when i was 6. They had 3 movies to show and they are really graphic. I started to think about the assaults that happene in highschool and how no one helped me or even beleived me. If highschool wont beleive you why would college? I ended up cutting my arm after the whole presentation. I dont know whats wrong with me. I should be over the physical assaults by now. I mean they did happen 3 years ago. And the memory of the boy putting his hands down my pants. Its not real i dont think. I wished i didnt go to it. My mind wont stop thinking about all the crap i had to take. Cutting releived the memorize for an hour now. I just6 want to cut and sleep and forget about it. Why cant i forget??????????