Thank you SO much for all of the replies

There definitely was a time when twice a week therapy was a necessity for me, and I would have found a way to pay for it, even if it meant going into debt to do it. I think twice a week therapy is probably what kept me out of the hospital for a long, long time.

Now that we're on the other side of me telling most of my story, I feel like I *can* do once a week, without completely falling apart, being unsafe, etc. We truly truly can't afford twice a week (never could, really) and I owe it to my family to cut back so we can get out of debt and have more money for things the rest of the family wants to do.

But I totally agree with you, Miss C. I don't think there is anything wrong with my attachment to T, and I will let myself be attached to him for as long as I need to. It is something I still need, very much.

I know T and I will find a way to navigate this to make it as easy as it can be. He told me that I can e-mail and call as much as I need to, and that helps. And 3 sessions every 2 weeks will help too.

I see him TOMORROW. I CAN NOT WAIT.