Googley, this is very good expressing your feelings!! Good work!!! Do you think that you need to find better friends then? Maybe you go for the "not so good" friends because you don't feel that you deserve better? Can you shoot higher and find better friends?

Another option is to tell these friends when they hurt you? Learning this communication is very good for developing friendships.

When I was in my early 20's I made plans with a friend who lived a few hours away. She was going to drive down and we were going to go to an amusement park which was a few hours away (I think it was a whole weekend trip). She called me the day she was going to come and tells me she can't come because she has some acne. I told her that was bs and she needs to come and get over her acne! She came. Later I realized how shallow she was and we eventually grew apart......