Ok last night when he got home we were in the bed and he rubbed my leg and he noticed the cuts. He then asked what was going on and i just told him everything. He didnt get mad like I thought. He is just upset a little. And he said that he would not abandon me. He told me he would be there for me like I did with him through his rehab and jail. He did say that if the kids see me do it they will leave until I can get better. I can kind of understand that but I would never let them see or even watch me do that to myself. My appointment is tomorrow and we are going to get all the info we can so he can understand all of this better. And he did tell me he he didnt realize how serious it was and that i need to go to the hospital. And this weekend he wants me to sit down and tell my stepdad, sisters, aunt, and mother in law (which he knows that she already knows). She is just going to be there for moral support for me. I feel better that he knows and he didnt respond the way i thought he would.