Thanks everyone for the awesome support. *sigh* I got all freaked out with guilt when the others said it was SI.. but FZ, I didn't end up with any actual injury. My skin is pretty tough. But it did hurt. But no scratches, no abrasions, although the skin on my legs is all irritated. I didn't mean to hurt myself. I just wanted to scrub off whatever ick feeling was all over my skin and my loofah and my other exfoliating thing weren't making me feel clean.. so I went and got the Scotch Brite pad.. and it made me feel clean.

Peaches, the book hasn't come in yet from Amazon so I'll see if I'm actually able to read it. Typically I avoid these things like the plague but it's time to just *sigh* face it. I don't want to waste my life being so unhappy. I don't know if T and I will work on it together. Honestly I am so embarrassed it will take an effort just to tell her I bought a book on the subject at all!

I am glad I may have inspired you

And as far as T not having the expertise.. *sigh* I think I will ask her more about this next session. Like asking her what exactly her experience has been like so far. How much CSA experience, etc.