I'm sorry ripley.....
Sometimes we have to cut our losses and move on, no matter how painful and hard it is. I have pretty much done that with most of my family and it's taken a number of years to get to the point where it doesn't really bother me that much anymore. Some of them I do miss and it doesn't mean that I don't love them for who they are. I just realized that we don't have much in common and there have been some hurtful things said and done. Sometimes love just isn't enough to keep a relationship going. Sometimes understanding isn't enough to keep a relationship going. Sometimes taking the fall for something that isn't our fault isn't enough to keep a relationship going.
Do something kind for yourself hon. Everyone deserves that now and again. Family is family and they can be the most critical and closed minded of all our relationships.