I'm only 14, but I have no idea what is wrong with me. I have an amazing best friend, a great boyfriend, and loads of other good mates. My family do love me. But I'm just miserable all the time and have been for a year. I don't know if I'm depressed or not, but I do feel it. I self harmed for about 6 months and stopped last month for my current boyfriend, but I have recently been getting urges to cut myself alot more recently. I cant cope, In class I stare at the scars on my wrist and sometimes find my self touching them without realizing.

My best friend knows I used to self harm and was so proud of me when I finally stopped, I really don't want to disappoint her, but I cant help thinking about it. I am starting to fail in school again, and having arguments with my family, the same as before I self harmed about 6 months ago. I really don't want to go down that road again...But I'm scared I wont have any control or release if I don't hurt myself.

Please, please help me.