Belle - you are a strong girl. You know whats going on. Change your thinking. Put yourself in the middle - then he becomes less important. You cannot control what in his mind and what he does. You can control what is happening in your life, and you do not need him to define who you are. Stop analysing it. Do something else that makes you feel good instead. You are slipping into the codepedence thing again and into the drama. You are letting the obsessive thoughts take over. Mark is not worth it! Hugs back xxx