Peaches,
Not feeling so embarrassed now but there was a season that as I walked out the door or later at home my eyes would roll and I would feel disdain but that is where the problem lay for me. I didn't want to talk to the little parts, the medium parts or the other big parts because that would mean I had to come out of denial and begin to address the whole of The Hive. I have since learned that is the whole point. Talking amongst my parts or if they don't speak then taking an action like offering a stuffie, taking to some gentle time together etc.
Peaches please be patient with yourself. You are moving forward establishing trust with your therapist and amongst yourself. That doesn't mean 'stop' going forward and working as best as you can, it just means the process can be excruciatingly long and other times it is like hmmm this is too fast. Do keep yourself safe and have some fun times.
Hunny
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Originally Posted by peaches100
Do you ever get into the child self and say things to your t that you feel really surprised and/or embarrassed about later? If so, how do you handle that?
i feel so strongly that i need to let the hurt child speak. But i keep such a tight rein on her for fear she will say something wrong/dumb/embarrassing.
it's rare when i can express things from that part of me because of fear and shame.
even when the child does talk and my t is accepting/soothing, later i feel afraid that i said something or did something wrong.
i think it comes from when i was a little girl and my dad always criticized or made fun of my feelings.
i don't know how to stop being scared about it.
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